Susan's past is at her finger tips but a baby is all that is on her mind!!!

I woke up from this vision crying hysterically, Michael heard my crying and came running to me. “What is wrong, why are you crying?” he asked. I looked at him crying trying to formulate my words. “Did you have another vision?” he asked. I shook my head yes and then before I could react Michael was in the bed next to me holding me and rubbing my arms telling me everything would be ok. I just laid there and cried for a long time, I new that I was taken and drugged by my father I could feel it through my vision and that scared the shit out of me. After a long time of me crying Michael pulled away from me and said, “Susan, what was this latest vision about? You’re more upset than I have ever seen you, Please tell me.” I paused for a long while and then said, “I was about eight maybe ten years old in this vision and we were rushing out of town, my dad was frantic, I felt dizzy like I was drunk or drugged. Someone had drugged me. Michael my dad drugged me. What the hell was going on where were we going? I felt sick and scared. I could see a sign it said we were in Kansas. My dad realized I had my eyes open, he yelled for my step mom to give me more drops and then everything went blank. Michael something bad happened to me as a child that I don’t remember. I am so scared and sad. I can’t believe my dad would do this to me. What am I going to do?” Michael held me tight again thinking of how to respond to what I just said. I could tell he was struggling and that he new something. I looked over at the clock and I actually had been asleep for a couple of hours. I pulled away from Michael and said, “You read through the court documents I can tell you’re not telling me something. Please tell me what you have found out.” Suddenly I felt more scared, Michael was all tense and had a look on his face that told me I would soon be crying again. He took a deep breath and said, “Susan, I have reviewed all to documents we found. The first court documents match your first visions. You father filed a court action to take you away from your mother and the judge ruled in his favor. Apparently your mother lost a child and was severely depressed. You parents got divorced after their son died you had a little brother that died from SIDS when he was six months old. In the ruling it said that if your mother could get help then she could have supervised visits with you and then they would re-visit the custody arrangement after that. Your mother did everything she was supposed to do and the court ordered your father to give her overnight visits. He never complied. I think that might be the night he ran. The next court documents were a reversal of the custody agreement giving your mother full custody of you. There was also a warrant for his arrest for kidnapping of a child. Susan it looks like your mom has been searching for you for several years.”  I buried my head into his chest and cried. I cried for what felt like hours soon I was asleep again. After I couple of hours I woke again. Michael was not with me. I got up feeling a little disoriented. I walked down the hall to see if he was in his office. Before opening the door I could hear that he was talking on the phone. Getting closer to the door I heard him say, “Have you located the person I wanted you to find yet, I feel that you are taking too long to figure this all out and I am growing impatient, then he stopped and  said she is up I will call you back when I have more time. Feeling like I was going to get caught spying on him I climbed back in bed and laid there like I was just waking up.  I could hear him walking down the hall to our bedroom. “Hi, your awake, How are you feeling?” he asked. I sat up in bed and said, “I feel terrible actually, I thought I heard you talking to someone, was there someone here?” I asked.  He looked at me and smiled, “You are a sneaky one, you were spying on me in my office,” he said. I just sat there and smiled expecting him to tell me what was going on, he didn’t though. Instead he asked if he could get me something to eat. I told him I was not hungry anymore and got up from the bed abruptly. He tried to grab my hand but I pulled it away from him and walked into the bathroom and locked the door. Michael knocked on the door and said, “Please let me in, I hate it when you do this, you jump to conclusions and never give me the benefit of the doubt.” I unlocked the door but didn’t open it and so he did. He walked in cautiously and looked around the door. I was filling to tub when he fully came in the bathroom and I was standing there naked. He stood still and quiet looking at me with a touch of amusement on his face. I looked at him and said, “What are you looking at?” He smiled and inched at little closer. I smiled back at him but I was still so uncertain of what he is hiding from me, but he is correct I did automatically think the worst of him, but today he has given me good cause. He was now standing right next to me and looking me up and down then he said, “I am looking at the most beautifully amazing woman I have ever laid my eyes on.” Then he leaned in and kissed me. I pulled away from him and tended to my bath. Michael never moved away from me he just stood there and surveyed my entire body. I felt a little exposed to him for some reason, it’s funny, he has touched and explored every inch of my body but this time feels different. I turned back to him kissed him lightly on the lips and attempted to enter the tub but Michael was unwilling to let go of me. He said, “I think your going to be pregnant.” “Hold up, wait a minute, where is this coming from and besides I am on birth control,” I said. “That’s all good and dandy but your house burnt down almost a week ago and I am sure you have not taken any of your birth control since the fire because I think that it was left in your house during the fire” he said feeling a little smug. “Holy shit you’re right and we have been having a lot of sex. OMG! OMG! I turned around and shut off the water and walked out of the bathroom to my closet to get dressed. Michael followed me looking a little confused at what I was doing. “I thought were taking a bath” he asked. “No, you’re taking me to the pharmacy to buy a pregnancy test because I think I should have started my period about two weeks ago and I haven’t. Great, with everything going on I am probably going to be pregnant, so you should be happy because once again you are going to get what you want,” I said with a nasty attitude. Michael looked me in the eyes and calmly said, “Try not to stress, you’re probably not pregnant and if you are we will cross that bridge when we get there.” “Aren’t you just a wise man,” I said teasing. Dressing in minutes, I ran downstairs and waited impatiently for Michael to get ready. I paced in the entry of his house still waiting then finally I yelled upstairs, “Michael will you please hurry the hell up you are taking for ever.” Michael came running down the stairs and grabbed his keys. I ran ahead of him and waited for him to unlock the car. We got in his car and drove to the closest pharmacy. I ran in and grabbed a pack of two pregnancy tests. I figured I could take two just to make sure. While I was in line purchasing my tests I noticed someone from the office and suddenly thought I was going to pass out. I asked the cashier to put the tests in a paper bag hoping that they did not see what I was purchasing and smiled as I walked past her. The girl from my office is a secretary for one of the other lawyers her name is Tammy I think. I don’t care really I just want to get the hell out of here and don’t want to be gossiped about. So I kept walking so I could leave without having a conversation with her. When I got outside Michael was still illegally parked at the curb waiting for me, as I got in his car I noticed she was looking out the window at me getting in his car. “Fuck” I said as I got in his car. “What is the matter now?” he asked. “Oh, just someone from the office just watched me purchase a pregnancy test and then get in your car, that’s all,” I said. Michael just laughed and pulled away from the curb. “Susan you are going to have to get used to people knowing about us, especially since we are getting married, eventually and you could possibly be pregnant,” he said with entirely too much enthusiasm. It took only a couple of minutes to get back home. Barely waiting for his car to stop I snatched the keys from him and ran up the steps unlocking the door and locking his car in the same second. I dropped the keys in his hand and ran up to the bathroom not wanting to wait a moment longer. I ripped open the package and sat on the toilet within seconds I was pacing the bathroom waiting for the results, when I turned I realized Michael was watching me smiling. “You’re really starting to piss me off, you’re all happy and don’t have a care in the world,” I said. “I’m not going to lie, I would be the happiest man alive if you were to be pregnant, but like I said before we will cross that bridge when we get there,” he said all too calmly. It had to be time to look at the test but I just couldn’t make myself look. I walked out of there and said, “You look at it I can’t, I’m out of here!” I turned before he could say anything else and went out on the balcony. After a few minutes Michael joined me outside, he was holding the pregnancy test and was smiling that said everything I needed to know, I was pregnant. “Shit, shit, shit, I can’t believe this is happening,” I yelled. He looked at me with un-shed tears in his eyes and said, “It’s positive.” I had to sit down because I thought I was going to faint. Michael quickly sat next to me with almost as stunned a face as mine. He looked at me and those tears finally spilled over. Realizing how happy this was making him I knew I had to put my fears aside or he was going to think I don’t want his children. I grabbed him and cried into his chest. I am so scared, my life is completely out of control and now I am going to bring a child into my craziness. How irresponsible. I always promised my dad I would wait to get pregnant until after I was married and enjoying my life. But he was a kidnapper and a liar, I can’t believe in anything he ever said. He pulled away from me and looked me in the eyes and asked, “Are you sure you’re going to be ok with this, you know if you’re not I will support you in what ever decision you choose. Even if you decide you don’t want to have it.” I was dumbfounded, he just gave me the approval to have an abortion if I wanted to, not that I ever would, but still he is so wonderful. “Michael, I want nothing more than to be mother of your children, I just wasn’t ready for it to be now, but I will be ok, just give me some time to freak out a little and I will be happy before you know it” I said still crying.  Before I could say another word his lips were on mine and we were lost in each other. He picked me up into his arms and carried me into our bedroom and laid me softly onto the bed. He lifted up my shirt to expose my belly and kissed it over and over until it tickled. He is so happy I wish I could feel the same way. Michael makes me feel things I never thought possible and I can’t wait for what’s in store for us in the future. I love this man, more than he will ever know. My main concern now is I hope its not twins. I laughed to myself and what was running through my brain and looked up at Michael. He was starring at me and wanting to know what I was thinking, so I decided to ask him, “Michael, do twins run in your family?” He started laughing and said, “No, not that I know of. But what about you, do you know of any multiple births in your family?” “I have no idea my family history is nothing but lies.” I said looking a little sad. “Susan, I know a lot has happened to change your opinion of your childhood, but one thing I want you to remember is that your dad loved you. He may not have handled it legally or the correct way in general but he loved you none the less and you know that is correct. In regards to your biological mother, that was what the phone conversation was about that you over heard. I was talking to my PI. I asked him to locate her in case you wanted to meet her or know where she was living,” he said looking a little concerned that I might freak out on him. I placed my hand in his and said, “Thank you for that but next time please ask me if I want that first, a lot has happened in the last week and I don’t really know how I feel about my biological mother yet. I want it to be my choice and not have my choices made for me.” “I’m sorry Susan, I will make sure it is you’re decision from this point on,” he said showing his relief that I did not freak out on him. “Thank you, I love you so much and I want to spend the rest of my life with you. I hope you never forget that,” I said as I kissed him over and over again. Michael quickly went back to kissing my belly. He is so funny, I can’t be that far along, I am pretty sure I had a period last month, but maybe not, I have been so stressed getting ready for my new job and remodeling my house. What a waste, I remodeled my house and spent a fortune on it. It really sucks that I only got to enjoy it for a month before some asshole burnt it down. We fooled around for a little while when I realized I was starving I had not eaten all day. I got up from the bed and walked to the bathroom feeling a little ill. Without any warning I started to vomit. Michael came into the bathroom to check on me as I had my face buried in the toilet. I turned to him and told him to get out.